Memory Lane

Walking down memory lane is one thing. Strolling down it is another. But why we humans walk down that lane at times? Does that only happen when nostalgia hits you? Alright, maybe that's probably a soothing feeling at times. Besides, I wouldn't want things to be a little melodramatic. It comes best whenever you're alone. Alone with your beautiful music and the surrounding tranquility, it's truly a feeling like no other. I yearn for that feeling. A feeling no more. But I'm sure it would return one day.

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry if I've made you cry. Well I think you did, based on what you posted on your blog. I sure hope we could get over this quickly. As you said, it won't be perfect anymore. The glass is permanently cracked. But if our friendship is strong enough, I suppose any crack can't impend our advance to a stronger friendship. It's gonna be hard for both of us to ameliorate the pain. But if we're willing to it's possible. I guess this incident shows how weak our friendship is. A friendship needs mutual understanding. And I hope after this incident, everything else will be fine like before. Melvin doesn't really need to know this. Let's just keep it between ourselves. Let's hope for a better future then?

Knowledge

So knowledge is a good thing I suppose. A flow of information that gives a more open outlook to the world for the mind. The thing is why are people gonna be criticized badly for such information? Are we just comparing who's the stronger one there?

That's unfair and no, don't give me bullshit saying life's unfair. So what if you are better than me at academics? So what if you are better than me at certain subjects like Maths and Chemistry? Now I know why your sister just can't seem to understand and learn from you. Probably she ain't stupid. No one's stupid. Yeah, you did try your best since she's your sister. But your arrogant attitude of flaunting knowledge is really getting on my nerves. I mean, the only reason why I'm asking you is because you are the one of the few that I can rely on information. It's really getting into me. You don't seem to be sensitive to others'. You don't seem to understand and respect how people feel. Well, maybe it's your nature. But still, does that grant you the right that I may be weaker than at Chemistry? Okay, reprimanding your sister is one thing. Chiding your friend is the other. Friend? I highly doubt so the way things are unfolding. Can't you slowly teach me like the others? Can't there be some sort of understanding border that I can have? There's the feeling of loneliness there whenever I see you chatting away with Melvin. I know finally how it feels to be like my other friend. It's a selfish feeling. A very sad thing which was clearly instigated by you people. At times, whenever I think about it, I feel sorry for Jinwei. He doesn't deserve it. He's a nice guy and all. He empathizes with people. I try to at times. But to no avail. You claim that you care for your friends. But since when do you that? Actions speak louder than words. Your action doesn't reflect the bullshit you claim. Sometimes, a person who's mentally unstable can see the real truth behind the light. It takes a trip behind the scenes who really are. So what if you're more knowledgeable in terms of the Sciences and Mathematics? Yeah, you claimed ''I hope tomorrow there wouldn't be acidic oxides.'' Okay well, I can thank you for that. But do you mean it? Every word you say don't seem to say how you claim. Same goes, you don't wanna hear my own knowledge on technology, I respect that. But I understand what you've to tell me at times are useful. I thank you sincerely for that. But sometimes your cavalier attitude really turns me off. I feel like it's a total new person. Call me over-reacting. But it happened since the very first outing we had. Why do you think I avoid you at times? You may not notice since you're always chatting gaily with Melvin. Sometimes, when Melvin tells me,''hey, maybe I'll come if Melvin comes haha. There would be a higher chance.'' Ya know how I felt? I wanted to say no. Maybe, I'm too kind. I should had say no straight in his face. I really didn't want you along at times because of what I just mentioned. Your presence is overbearing at times. Maybe you would be my own ex-Senior or Senior if you still recognize me as your Junior. I don't know about how Melvin feels about this. I don't really think we should think about it either. Too melodramatic? Yeah maybe. But who cares already? I'll end it here. Sorry if I offended you Melvins'. But I hope the next time would be much better.

''Your current results doesn't really matter. What matters is that you have ambition. '' - Akio Morita, Sony Co-Founder

Design

It feels everything's been a dream. A dream that blew my mind away. The dream I fantasized of every single day. That dream that motivates me. That every substance it carries gives me the power to continue. But alas, design is a paradox. A paradox that makes everything seems like a blur. One second it helps to ensure you motivation is existent. Next moment, you find yourself struggling along with it. That very motivation is now gone. Gone just like the wind. Just like how the leaves fall to the ground. Gone were the days where I felt Design is the main constituent to my life, soul and body. That dream is something which I long so much for not to forget. At least, I know that dream was once in my life. It gives you the trouble of thinking why it acts this way. The trouble why it reacts that way. The very root of the problem of why it all happens that way. Never shall I think about it anymore. It's more like a dark abyss now where I'm groping my way through. But I do hope that one day. One day, I may find that Design fulfillment and reignite the dormant flame that lies within my heart. The passion must have the right key to unlock it's hidden sign. A talent or whatever you call it. I wish something would spark me. A possibility that I can ever think of. Sorry to whoever is reading this. This ain't a positive post. I know that. But at least pray for me to get back the passion? xD At long last, that's all. I sure hope Design would become a passion again. An inspiration which I can easily relate to. Just like something in built into me.

Sony Design

Okay, well just now I had a close shave with telling someone the wrong thing. Okay, under peer pressure, I didn't crank under it and came out of it undaunted. Hey! Where's the fucking medal? xD

Okay, not the fucking point anymore. Sony Design... Somehow those featured designs are purely inspiring. I could stay there and read on Sony the whole night. Their way of getting pure inspiration is simply like no other. This is how it relates back to my work.

Design & Technology

WE BELIEVE in the over-active imagination.

WE BELIEVE that great innovation can begin from an impossible idea.

WE BELIEVE technology can transform the human experience.

WE BELIEVE designs are fueled by pure inspiration.

Don't ever let someone tell you. You can't do something.

Do what has never been done before. Always stay one step ahead.

SONY Design

SONY make.believe

Feelings

Love? Well I did a post on this before and I still can't believe myself thinking 'bout that while I'm asking another person to get his mind straight. Okay, well, maybe it's hard to say and do at the same time. Probably sometimes we need to face up to our own feelings. THE HARD WAY. Facing up to it is one thing. Knowing the feeling of rejection is the other. It's a paradox indeed. Like being wedged in between like a sandwich. Yum Yum! Besides, I suppose that sometimes we have to just stop thinking about it by dwelling ourselves in work. But would that even work? This is merely saying it. Quintessentially, it would be weird to confess feelings straightaway. Well my dream honeymoon would be going to Japan, Paris, Venice then to Rome. Yeah in that order. I would love to spend the sunset with the companion I love. That would be picture-perfect. Well, definitely it would be an awesome experience is definite. :DD

Tonight We Dine In Hell

Love?

Ya know that type of feeling where a girl talks to you and all hatred are gone for her or the people whom you hate? It's a weird feeling. Probably best to describe it would be it's bittersweet. Melodramatic? I would say so. But it should be a great thing right? The fact that I'm gonna be calmed at least by someone whom I like? o.O